So alright, I know it’s been four months since my last post. But don’t think I have forgotten about you. It’s just that I have been very busy. Too busy for you, you say? Well, I know, I am sorry, I just get wrapped up in all my own stuff that I forget sometimes that there are people out there concerned for my well being. Please don’t be angry, I am not trying to be selfish.
Many days I have written to you here–within the confines of my own swirling brain. I just never seem to get the time to sit and write it down. Soon another day has gone by and I have new thoughts, making yesterdays thoughts jump to the back seat. Pretty soon I have so much to say to you that I say nothing. You know how that goes, right?
So I sit here today all sheepish and guilty and hope that you still love me and listen while I give you a brief synopsis of why the heck I cannot find time in my life to turn out a cohesive sentence. Here is why: I opened a bakery called ‘Just Baked’, I had Wash R Ware trade shows for 3 months, The Holidays crept in, I messed up my right knee, my house is a disaster, and to top it off my family unit has taken a tumble toward the bizarre as Mark and I try to figure out our futures seperately, and my 18 year tells me things like “I am a terrible mother” and “why didn’t I make him lunch….even terrible mother’s make kids lunch” while telling me also that he is 18, making him old enough to drink in his eyes and certainly old enough to get into car accidents.
All of these will be explored in far more detail in blogs to come, don’t worry. It’s just that I needed to do a quick check in with you all to let you know that I am still here. There is a boatload of experiences happening in my life right now. Do I write the personal stuff? Yes, I think that I will–question is, can you handle it? If not please unsubscribe right now. If you are not a friend or supporter, and only a gossiping voyeur who visits this blog to gather information to use against me, please jump off. Otherwise, hang on, I’ll be right back…
Welcome Back!!!! I have missed you and understand the complete chaos of life getting in the way of the things you love. Trust me, you have survived worse than an 18 year old who thinks he knows better than anyone and taking the time to figure out what is best for you. One day at a time, look at the end rather than the immediate present, and know that it will all work out in the end. Are you a terrible mother? We all are in the eyes of our children at some point or another – enjoy it, you can remind them of it when they give birth to their first child especially since it isn’t true. You are the mother you were meant to be and they will be better adults for it when they realize that everyone else’s mother is much crazier than you!
Miss you and hope the bakery is baking away and doing great!
Another thought from a fellow “terrible mother”… I tell my kids, on those occasions when they notice what a bad mom I am (not allowing my 11-year-old a cell phone, not planning camping trips when I’m recovering from pneumonia, not buying brand-name clothes for my teenager…Horrors almost as bad as not making an 18-year-olds lunch!), I tell them: “Oh, what a relief. Now you’ll have something specific to tell your therapist when you’re thirty. I’d hate for you to run out of stuff to talk about.” Cue the eye-rolling, but I’ll survive, and so will you. You must be a great mom–your kid is alive, and he’s even smart enough to complain in a way that will push your buttons. smart kids come from good moms. Be well!
in Mikey’s words my Fran “Life is a series of event…” well we know how the rest goes. I am proud of you and privileged to be your friend.
My doll – I missed you. Oy Vey – hang in there, I honestly don’t know how you do it. I was telling Jimmy last week that you haven’t written your blog in a while. As long as your feeling good. Life is so strange at times… Oh I wish I could taste your baked goods!! I agree with Gina it’s a privilege to have you as a friend.
Fran, you probably dont know this but you have always been a role model to me…keep doing what you are doing, and don’t ever look back. xoxox ~your little niece