Hello. Anybody out there? I’ve been away from my writing far too long. The thought of this has been pawing at the back of my brain along with the growing list of guilts and anxieties regarding my well intentioned tasks–cleaning my house, visiting my brother, spending more time with my kids, not getting enough exercise. They jockey for position in my head like a kindle of thirsty kittens trying to drink from their mother.
When I was a kid my mother would sometime say, “Keep your thoughts to yourself.” A way of trying to teach me to have a filter, I suppose–those who know me well, know that it obviously didn’t work. But that is what I have been doing lately. I have been walking around with thoughts, large and small. I’ve had great intentions of putting them down on paper but at the end of the day I fall into bed exhausted and tell myself that tomorrow I will get to it.
As every day passes it becomes more and more difficult to sit in this chair and write. But today I will start slow. Like when I have been away from running too long, I start back up by running a mile or two, ease into it.
Much has happened to me and around me in the last 6 months which I would like to share with you.
But first I need to know if you are still out there. Let me know. Because I have a lot to say….