“I have always known

You land where you’ve been thrown, 

And make that house your home”   Buffalo Tom

I was listening to one of my favorite bands today ,Buffalo Tom, who hail from Boston and have been around the local and national scene for more than 20 years.  (That fact alone makes me feel old).  Anyway, Bill Janowitz has always been a master with his phrasing and this quote from the song “Thrown” got me thinking about landing where I have been thrown.

 I was thrown into the world of cancer. Thrown into a world of anxiety, medical terminology, death, life, medicine and surgery. A world where nothing is as simple as it used to be, pains are not just pains and mortality is not taken for granted .No one asked if I wanted to be here, I was not given a choice, the forces-that-be decided to throw me into this world, sit back and see what I would do with it.

So what are we to do when life gives us these obstacles and hardships? We either let it destroy us or we own it — according to Bill, we make that house our home.  Fighting breast cancer and becoming a cancer survivor has become the center of who I am now, it’s where I will live for the rest of my life.  I am still in the process of turning my new house into a home.  There are many boxes, still taped up, that I have yet to unpack.  And I have brought  so many feelings with me, like old pieces of furniture, that I am still not sure which rooms to put them into. So I, like my new house, am  in a state of flux right now; but hopefully soon, I will settle in to this place and feel at home in the new life I have been given.  It’s the only choice I have, really.

Heres a taste of Buffalo Tom for those of  you that don’t know this awesome band: